Dissociative Disorders like DID and Borderline have a lot in common. These people have bad boundaries. They tend to lose themselves in other people. They have patterns They return to the same places, same people, time after time. Oftentimes they are runners. They misplace trust. This is nothing new. McLean knows this. MIP knows this. Most every mental health organization or counselor out there knows this. The thing is, all this starts somewhere. You learn this somewhere. It all comes back to those same places and people you started with, The places and people that you trusted first. The ones that taught you to learn how to walk, to read, to trust in the first place. Dissociative Disorders start somewhere, You wanna find the origins? You don't have to look far. It starts before you end up at one of these places. You trace the footsteps back, you track the running... it walks all the way back... back home.
Bad boundaries are learned. They are taught. When you have a Dissociative Disorder, and you want to find the source, You need to start at the beginning. You start at home. And then you know when to be careful about trust.
I was running before I turned 13. First in my mind, then all sorts of places. It started right where I am now. In this very room. Right here. It started with nights. The nightmares. That's where it started. Right here, This exact spot. This is where DID started... Some 30-40 years ago. This is where I learned.
It can start with physical boundaries. Emotional ones. It can lead to nightmares, running, depression, medications, self-harm, hospitalizations, voices... sometimes the teachers are the ones that bring you in for help. Help my child. They have problems. Give them medications. Teach them. And then from place to place, here to there, you carry your bad boundaries, your trauma and your misplaced trust. Sometimes it's sexual abuse... sometimes verbal... sometimes physical, sometimes the abusers follow you around, they hospitalize you, demonize you, medicate you, they never let you go.
It starts right here. At home. the exact place that MIP released me to just a few weeks ago. It started decades and decades ago. Right here. This exact spot. And i have returned. To the exact place this all started. It started here. I went to MIP from here. And now MIP has released me to here. STRONG BOUNRDARIES, THEY SAID. STRONG BOUNDARIES.
Maybe MIP knows a thing or two.
CCBH didn't know what they were doing. They let me be force medicated back into this care. MIP knew different. They didn't do the same. STRONG BOUNDARIES. There's your medicine.
She knew. She knew it started right here. She knew Dr. Richards was controlling me with medication. She knew it all started in this exact spot. And so does MIP. So does Gateway. Every knows it all started right here. This exact spot. People with Trauma have patterns, They always return.
The DID started right here. This exact spot. It dissociated. It ran away. It went to MIP. It got medicated. It went to McLean. Got medicated some more. It went to Riggs. It got analyzed. It came home again, It went back to MIP. To Gateway, To Springbrook. To CCBH. And the DID always came back home. Right here, To this exact spot. It comes back home. To where it all started. This spot. This is DID. It's home.
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