The thing about people with letters, the doctors, the social workers, the counselors... They don't like being manipulated. They don't like it when you don't follow their instructions, they don't like having opinions fed to them, they don't like not being included in decisions, they don't like other people with letters interfering, and don't like being gossiped about. I've made these mistakes. But these people with letters don't stop interfering with each other, then shit storm gets worse. LET THEM DO THEIR JOBS. DON'T TALK ABOUT THEM. DON'T FEED THEM OPINIONS. I CAN'T CONTROL THEM ANYMORE THEN YOU CAN. And if you have letters after your name and someone with letters finds out you contradicted your instructions for someone under your care, that really pisses you off.
The internist said stay at home. STAY AT HOME. HOW HARD IS THAT TO UNDERSTAND. AM I GONNA HAVE TO RECORD HER VOICE AND PLAY IT BACK FOR YOU? IS THAT WHAT IT TAKES? YOU THINK SHE APPRECIATES THIS? No, you want me running around town. If my right foot is numb when I'm driving, what then? The walking is easier then the more targeted motions like driving. There is common sense here somewhere.
You people with letters better mind your own damn business and stop interfering with each other. It's not helpful. It's really the Internist, the Psychiatrist, and the Counselor I need to follow right now. The GI doc, I just take the prilosec each AM and watch my diet. The neurologist did her job. The Psychiatrist, I have to schedule the appointment because they refused to coordinate care and I'll have to drive to that place or do the video appointment and he hates when I do the video but I really do not think I need to be driving a lot of places and that particular place is not easy to drive to. YOU THINK YOU CAN COORDINATE A LITTLE BETTER ER/MEMORIAL? Anyways. I suppose I could message the psychiatrist about moving the refill so I can drive to my place and go to the pharmacy right near it instead of driving multiple places. They just love hearing from me. No, they are not going to be happy till I'm running around town. They got a schedule to keep.
Just took my morning meds. doing the calm app. If I'm good at communicating in writing then maybe that's what I should do. I'll journal every single day. That'll be your communication know you don't like it. But when I say my say my voice isn't great, again, and again and again... well maybe there's something to that. When I say my voice isn't good, do I need a letter from the neurologist saying that i shouldn't talk much? I like to rest it. I'll need to check the blood pressure again at noon. trying to get it below 125/80. when the lower number goes above 80, that seems to be when my foot doesn't work as well. The left one is rather perky.
No people will always be pissed off I don't say much. Some people don't say much and do just fine. If I can be ok with it, why can't other people? communicating visually isn't a crime. Gets on people's nerves. I don't speak loudly. Not for long periods.
I need to wash up. Check my blood pressure around noon, then try to go by my place to get it ready for the repairs. Tomorrow I'll have to focus on getting to the hospital to get that medication. How hard can it be to get an LPC, an internist, and a psychiatrist to work together and mind my own business? Keep the rest of the snakes at bay? Gonna have to find out, day by day. The rest of the people with letters have done their jobs. There's only so many places you can ship me. And if I keep driving like this, that would contradict pretty much all the people with letters. Yet you want me running around town, from here to there? Brilliant. Keep it up. Soon we'll all be dead. Soon we'll be having wellness checks from public safety. That'll make you real happy, won't it? You think police want to worry about me? you think they don't have enough on their plate? Without wellness checks and stuff like that? You think people driving around without feeling in my right foot?
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