Ten Pounds

 Well, I thought I'd check the score...

McClean... 2 (over one year behind locked doors in dark spaces with no tv, nothing to do, never even going outside the building... not even once)

Springbrook ... 2

CCBH ... The infamous 1

Lost'n Rigged... 1 (roughly 1 year)

MIP... at least 3 as a teen, 3 in 20s, 3 in 30s, and 3 in the past year... at least 12 total inpatient visits plus 1 IOP and at least 3 Partial hospitalizations.

Heard from the LPC. Seems that MIP did some homework. They faxed the hospital records for stay number 12ish, but they went above and beyond. They decided to do some digging... the printer got busy... 100... 200... 300... 400... 500...

600 pages of documents in the mail. We killed a few trees. About 10 pounds. I'd like to be a little less interesting. I got curious. On the internet it says the average printed page has 250-300 words on a page. 250-300 = average of 275. So one hospital had roughly 165,000 words of history to say. I once referred to it as a third home. It wasn't a joke.

Then they wonder why I need disability. 

DXes tried on for size... 2 Bipolars, 3 depressions, 1 "non specified psychosis" (thank you CCBH and SSA), 1 GAD, 1 "OCD like behavior", 2 dissociative disorders, an aspergers, an autism spectrum, an Auditory processing, a ADHD, a sleep apnea, an adjustment disorder, dysgraphia, and a half dozen physical problems... at least 23 different disorders used as working dxs, with at least 12 independently confirmed. I've retired from medicine. 

2 comas. Memorial and Beth Israel Deaconess.

3 near death experiences including dialysis and CDC involvement.

So we talked about anger. Anger and I are good friends. It knows my mind, my heart,  and through Clozaril it knows my liver.