Projection

 

I don’t know you

You’re not my friend

Nor family, nor lover

To me you’re nothing at all.

 

Yet I open my world to you.

You listen to my secrets.

They play in the shadows of your mind

And I wonder what you’re not telling me

 

You seem to exist in another dimension

In a place I simply cannot go

Yet I struggle to reach you nonetheless

never understanding why I try.

 

Sometimes I want to tear you down,

To belittle you and say hard truths

To break your façade and draw your tears

In a clumsy attempt to make you real.

 

You’ve done to me not a single crime

but I easily pretend you’ve done everything.

                I try to believe that hurting you is justice

Yet I am powerless to pursue such righteousness

 

I don’t want to feel anything when I look at you.

I pursue complete apathy, though I fail every time.

You’re not a part of my life so why are you in it?

The simple truth is that you aren’t.

 

I don’t deny that the adversary lies within me

I know that you are more than a reflection

I can warp my concept of you minute by minute

Yet regardless, you remain the same.

 

Even as I seek you, I try to escape you

It’s a twisted sort of dream

What will you be when our time is done?

As now, a figment of my imagination.

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